it was good to know, but it was too good to be true. when i was searching for truths beneath your confession, i stumble upon more lies. to an extend where i dont know whether to laugh or cry.

you are taking a toll on me, you really are. so this is my closure, darling. i’m closing this chapter of us right here. it was so sad that you could not have the guts to answer that phone. 

i hope you take my words seriously. go straighten your life out please? i fell in love with that girl not for her beauty, not for her sexy legs and definitely neither for her ass. your confidence, the way we could have a conversation for hours and your brains. you really lost it. i dont see it anymore, i dont even feel it. cause i swear i never came across that much of a beauty till i saw you.

somehow, when you crashed upon the brick wall, you lost yourself and you somehow lost the need for me. failure will always be reminders for us that we didnt try enough. so instead of whining and dwelling about it, stand back up and deal with it. the lowest thing you could do is to disappoint the people who were behind your back when you had nothing. so please, do something about your life now & without a doubt, i know you can.

next up, i hope you can remember this phrase as clearly as i can.

“YES, WE CAN DIE HAPPY IF YOU WERE MINE” 

somehow it isnt from me to you, you to me or someone to you. it was you to someone else. sorry if i am narrow minded but that phrase holds a lot of feelings in it right? and you are already sharing stuffs like OUR favourite show with that new someone. i’m not going to lie and say it didn’t hurt me one bit. it does and that’s why i’m writing this crap here.

i may had set the standard high, but darls, you know what i have, that someone might not have. but what that someone has, somehow i am lacking of it. no two humans are the same. so let’s be fair and give everyone the equal chance. i had my chance and i ruined it. 

i’m already a wreck inside and i hope you understand that i need to go. i cant be waiting for you no more while you are out there saying sweet nothings to other guys. i got my pride, i got my dignity and above all, my ego. i cast it aside thinking maybe for once i was doing something right. but silly aliff here, he should had remember that it was already a little too late.

i’m just going to hang this blog right here and never ever close it. cause cosmicfish.tumblr was where we started & cosmicfish.tumblr is where we going to end it. 

wishing you all the best and it will be better if we had just remained strangers. goodnight & goodbye cosmicfish.